再选择

刚刚看见一个朋友在一张照片上写到
“如果再选择，我也会选择认识彼此。”
这句话又让我想起她

无论我遇到的人是多么的棒
我还是一样
如果能够重新选择，我会选择不要认识这么棒的朋友
因为
我只想要静静地陪她走完她剩下的那一段路

对不起。

What if?

A situation suddenly pop out in my mind.
What if she had not been taken that time,
what kind of life she would have?
What kind of life we would have now?
Would she be healthy?
Or
Would she be suffered for her disease?
Will I have my thoughts right now?
Would I stick to the previous subjective?
Or
I will change because of the situation?
Would I change?
What would be happened if that time I did not take the step out?
Would I have those experiences that I have now?
Would I have change my perspective on life?
Would I be a person that I never want to be?

What if....

I am just a human

Can I?

I never have doubts on myself
Once I have decided on doing something,
          I will just proceed within having any hesitation.

This situation has changed two years ago.

I just do not know about myself anymore
   Doubts?
               Disappointments?
                                         Anger?
                                                   Confusion?
 I could not imagine how neurotic I am now.

Today,
lots of thoughts pop out in my mind.

I need to be honest to myself
I need to face the real me, no matter how bad it is.
I need to feel the true emotions inside me.
I need to accept that
                               I am just a human
                                                who makes mistakes
                                                who grow with failures
                                                who can cry
                                                who deserves joys

I will be fine, time tells.

Thank you for being with me.


                            

Listen to the heart.

Last time,
I used to not believe that
I can get on to my journey even if I left something behind remain unsolved
I was wrong
I can't really move on, when the issue is there
  haunting me, circling in my mind.

After all,
time passes two years.
Within these 2 years
I really achieved something, get recognition.
I really thought I can move on,
Indeed,
           still, I am there.

I try to get back to the previous life
           get back the previous energy
                                                      in doing things that I like,
                                                                            and I would like to achieve.
I am wrong.
My energy level is not as high as previous time
My physical could not catch up with my mind.
I hate that
              my soul is being trapped in this body
 But, I could do nothing and only listen to the body

Listen to the heart.
Do not panic.
Follow the voice from the heart
and you will found the way.

Grateful to meet him

I feel so blessed

I talked to him today
About my doubts and uncertainties
He gave me some ideas
But not the direct ways
He was my lecturer
And now
my mentor
He told me something that I should always think of
Told me to view the good side of things instead of the bad
Giving me enough courage to face my life
By affirming my abilities
He is not teaching me
But he is guiding me on my life

I am grateful to have him
Thanks so much sir

Happy birthday!

25
What have you got in this age?
Me?
What I have is way too far as compared to what I wish to have.
I can't even feed myself at this age.
I need to work hard right?
Thanks to my family
who support me physically and mentally.

Happy birthday, Louise!
Believe that you can make it.
Never too care about others' view.
You are yourself, nobody else.
Care nothing but the path that you have chosen.
All the best for you
& you may get what you want.
Be blessed
Be grateful
<3

This is me.

Yesterday
I helped to cook rice
It was a failure
As I put not enough water
Eventually
Mum claimed that I put no water
I was pissed
And told her that I did put water,
Just that it was not enough to cook the rice
She kept on saying that I put no water
So I couldn't bear with it
And screamed out

From this case
I understand myself that
I could never accept
People accuse me for things that I never do
I am always like that
I will admit if I did the mistake

Hope you understand