Wonderful December!~

The month of December in each year, is the month that I am always looking forward to. This year, I am having a great one! I learned a lot throughout the year, and I reap the fruit on my efforts since the beginning of the year.

Dec 1: I had my Final Year Project presentation on my Finance major.

Dec 8: my 24th birthday, exams and the memorable day for my beloved sister.

Dec 9: exams then rushed into a youth camp as a volunteer

Dec 9-11: volunteering in a youth camp

Dec 13: last paper of the year

Dec 15: start doing deco stuffs in college for Starry night

Dec 16: rehearsal for performance on Starry Night

Dec 17: last practice for performance and preparation for deco

Dec 18: Starry event which I need to engage for the whole day

Dec 19: proper rest in the day and home party at Michelle's crib

Dec 20: neighbor's Christmas open house

Dec 21: shopping with brothers and sisters

Dec 22: celebrate winter solstice with family

Dec 23: party with dance crew and the youth camp volunteer

Dec 24: hangout and countdown with my closest friends

Dec 25: precious time with dearest family.

Happy Birthday, Louise

What am I doing now?
I have no idea on this.
&
I do not even know how I feel,
just feel numb and aimless.

The day getting closer,
I still do not know whether I can handle the day or not.

The first anniversary she left the world,
which collide with my 24th birthday.
What a big irony?

People tells me to let go,
and cherish for my present.
Do you think I can celebrate my birthday
on my sister's death anniversary?
It's not that I am stubborn to let go,
but the only thing that I can do for her is
to remember every single moment of her
which are belongs to her.

Frankly say,
I would not want to freak my friends by telling them
about the day,
but I really hope no birthday celebration on the day it self.
Really hope.
If not,
my tears will be overflow...

Thanks for allowing me to be alive.
Thanks for giving me the chance to see the world properly
    through this 24 years.
Thanks for letting me taste the sorrow,
    which then makes my joy means more.
Thanks to my mum and dad.


Happy Birthday, Louise.
Look forward and keep those sweet memories
    deep, deep in your heart.
Cherish for what you have, and what you used to have.