Jan 30

First day back to college after the break
My mind was not with me in the class
I was worrying on my thesis.
Tomorrow is the due date for draft and I did 0%

Should I be frank
I hate this me
Keep on procrastinating.
When I can finish the draft?

I skip my dancing class
Still
I sit back and watch tv
just because something stuck in my mind.
I am bad right?
I want to be excel and
I do not give enough effort to achieve it.

tonight is the 8th night of CNY
the Hokkien people praying midnight
for the 9th day of CNY
they called it as "Bai Tian Gong"
It's a happening night
with lots of fireworks and firecrackers
But those really torture my eardrums and my heart.
Boom, Bomm... Bibap, bap, bibap,bibap....

I want back my tranquility
I still need to do my homework.
God bless~

Jan 29

Happy birthday everyone!
It's the seventh day of CNY
And according to Chinese tradition
it's the day that human being made up by the goddess.

Happy birthday to my closest friend
Seow Ying
As well

I had a peace day
Doing my research
Then went to grandma's home
Dinner with my friends
At a friend's house
We had yee sang
and lit two Kong Ming Lantern
Had a great time with them.

Thanks to all
Grant me the happiness. ^^

Jan 28

I shall have my work done by today
But frankly say
I still have nothing on my paper.

I did lots of researches
and meanwhile
enjoying my researches on the US trip
(I am so into it now)

I feel so free to do what i want today
No worries, no anxieties
Keep on browsing the web
reading
eating
and
writing
(writing for my journal, and planning)

Tomorrow will be the last day for me to do my draft

God bless me this time.

thanks for giving me a wonderful day.

^^

Jan 22- Reunion Dinner

Usually
previous years we often have it as dinner
though we tried twice as lunch before
(due to the reason my sis was working on CNY eve.)

This year
we have it as a lunch.
We had a steamed fish, a whole bird chicken,
prawns, a soup and some vege.
The meal was heavy for us
since we have only 6 members.

After lunch
mum still continue her job
as she wanted to finish it today
then she can rest longer for the break.

At night
I made a yee sang by the helps of my bro and sis.
Then uncle and cousins came by
with another box of yee sang.
We had all of it
and enjoy so much.
That yee sang I made is more towards vege type
more healthy.

After all,
enjoy the fireworks when the clock hit 12.

Happy Chinese New Year!

Sorry if I'd done wrong for the previous year
and thanks for everything that you give me.

                                            The bigger colorful plate is prepared by me. Nice?

Jan 23- 1st day of CNY

Frankly say,
I am not enjoying this festival anymore,
except for the food.
I have lost a family member
which I've celebrate this festival with her for 17 years.
Felt like missing something.

Second,
I do not gamble
on my own personal reason (not religion)
During CNY
people around me tend to gamble a lot
Then I will just stay away from them

Anyhow,
I love those moments spent with my family
and relax without doing anything

Today,
we planned to visit Dong Zen Temple at Jenjarom
after our seafood dinner.
We left from home by 6pm
heading to Klang for our seafood dinner.
Unfortunately,
the restaurant that we wish to have dinner was closed
So, we found another restaurant for dinner.

The restaurant that we had dinner was kind of old
and for me
it is not matching my hygiene level.
The food is on satisfactory level
and I love the steamed fish head the most.
However,
the dinner costs us a lot.

After that,
we went to see the lighting at Dong Zen Temple.
For me,
the lighting and crafts were just common for me,
but I like the flowers planted around the temple.
They are just so nice!

Enjoy the day so much!
Thanks to you all~

The door is made up by recycle bottles. So nice!

Love you~ <3














 

Jan 24- 2nd day of CNY

Chinese New Year should be a happy day
but I am not happy for the day.

My adapter for my laptop burned this morning.
wonder why every time when I have something urgent to due
I must have to face some difficulties like
laptop broken, adapter spoil, network problems
even
laptop jam and I need to redo everything from the top
just because my work was not saved.

I believe
these are all my stepping stone,
to test on my abilities.
Am I right?

I shall try to be more positive like last time
before the incident.
Nothing could stop me except myself.
I shall find back my passion
towards everything that i want to achieve;
and stop blaming for unnecessary reasons.

I can, right?

Went to visit grandma
and spent the whole day with her.
The CNY atmosphere is not longer like last time.
Missed those moments.

Jan 25- 3rd day of CNY

I do not know whether I should describe this
as fortune or bad luck,
My laptop adapter burned yesterday.
Every time when I am headache on my work
I am sure something will come out
and pull me back.
All these are trying to test me?
I wonder.

After brunch,
I went to Low Yat Plaza
with my mum, bro and sis
to buy my new charger for laptop.

After that,
we walked to Pavilion.
Mum and my cute lil bro and sis
never went there before.
When we passed by before we reached Low Yat
we saw plenty of bear sculptures line up in front of Pavilion.
This really attracted us to visit Pavilion.

Eventually,
we realized that
are the bears called United Buddy Bears
which bring the message of
peace for the younger generations.
Those bears are done by artists from different countries
Each bear has the uniqueness of each country.
So meaningful.

We took lots of pictures
and we had a great day!

Fountain in front of Pavilion.

My twin bro and sis.

I miss her cheerful smile~

One of my favorite country~

I love Malaysia~ <3

Can you see the queue of the bears?

my lovely lil bro and sis. Do them look alike?

Bear with Einstein's quote and portrait.

"Peace cannot be kept by force. It can only be achieved by understanding."

The grand dragon in Pavilion.

Thanks to you all~ <3

Jan 26

Anything that happened today
I can forget
Except this.

I dreamt of her in my nap.
My deceased sis.
In a peaceful dream.
This is the first time I dreamt of her.
I never wonder I would ask her
those questions in that dream.
And this made me realized that
I have not forgive myself and her
In such case.

My question to her were
"Why you left me without telling me?"
"You said you will wait for me
to come back. But why you don't?"
"Can you answer me?"

Though I am not a dream interpreter,
But I can analyze that
I have not let go the emotions.
Yet
I scared to face the emotions.
It's terrified!

Please grant me wisdom to endure this!
Thank you.

Dear Egyne,
Rest in peace.
I love you forever.
And I will love my self more from now
As well as other family members.
Thanks for giving me so much of
wonderful memories
and also so much of experiences
that we learned together.
Thank you. <3

Jan 27 Friday

It's never too late to love
It's never too late to realize
It's never too late to forgive

After a Chinese new year break
without doing what I shall do
I realized something important to me.

I have changed the ranking
of the significance of my life
Family comes first
Follow by friends.
At first I felt weird
but it has became a fact.

My day was going well
In term of my daily routine.
However,
My thoughts and emotions are
running out of tune.

Let's talk about my daily routine.
I slept pretty early today
By 4 in the morning
woke up by 12
then only realized my ex-student
dated me out at 12.
My phone basically is out of order
And it is causing me lots of troubles
So, I was late for that.

Went to a bookstore
and flipped some books
Felt like buying so many books
But I haven't finish reading the previous one.
Watched a movie with the kids
And then back home
around 5.
After having some snacks,
Prepared for dinner.
I made pumpkin soup tonight.
I just love it! <3

Actually at night I want to
Do my research
But I just couldn't concentrate
as thoughts in my mind
Are kept on haunting me.

I realized something important to me

I AM SCARED TO FACE MY EMOTIONS!

I do not like to have those feelings
I prefer to feel no feeling when
something comes.
I always escape from the emotion
when it strikes.
I know I need to face it
but it's tough for me.
I need lots of courage and endurance
to have it on me.
Until I reluctant to update my journals

What I am going to do?
I need an escape.
From the emotions.

How can I relief from it?
@@

Jan 21

A tiring day.

A full day reserved for spring cleaning.
True,
from morning to evening.
Just an hour nap in between,
and half an hour doing my own stuff.

Yet,
my home still in a mess.
What I gotta do?

So much thing to do.
My research still 0%
and I gotta submit once after the break.
And the break
I've allocate the time for my family and friends.
Do i have sufficient time for my work?
Yes!
I gotta keep on telling myself,
no matter how,
I will do the part
and it will be super good in grading.
I have time on it.

Time flies.
I got my final year project, assignments, exams,
my dance practice and family commitments.
Last but not least,
all application procedures and researches
on my coming Work and Travel program.

Thanks for granting me the energy to endure this.
I am doing my best now.

Jan 20

Have I ever sit down and think what I want?
I've been beaten by this question today.
What I want?
Mmm...

I want to go US again,
to settle my internal conflict.
This is what I need to do,
instead of what I really want.

What else?
I want to get excellent result in last semester!
4 flat!
This is what a student should do right?

I want to improve in my dancing,
which I can participate in coming shows.

I want to be cheerful.
I want to be pretty
I want to be healthy.

I just simply want to be happy.

Hmm...
I shall think more solid thing to be achieve.

ok.
I want to have a boyfriend
who loves me and
gives me trust and freedom.
(This looks more realistic!)

Last,
I  want to enjoy my 2012 life!
It will be a fantastic year for me!
Happy 25!
(Oops! It's 23 every year! :p)

happy 2012

thanks to all~
Love you!

Jan 19

Sick jor ==

I had a tough day
With my unhealthy body
So tough when I had my three hours lecture
And driving to and fro to college.

I just couldn't stand the severe headache.
Mum keeps on calling me
to drink more.
My stomach filled with lots of water
till no appetite at all.

Talk more tomorrow.
:)

Jan 18

Feel unbreathable now
physically.

Met with primary school friends
At chatime

Others about today will do later.

Jan 17

Finally,
I mean after a period,
The emotion comes and strike me again.

I miss her.
I drop my tears
after a month which
I have been lost control on my tears.

Today
0030
I dropped my tears for an hour
Then slowly get into dream
Within 2 hours
Insomnia
>~<

Woke up 9 plus
Have breakfast with mum and dad
Then went to college.

My work on my research really needs lots of hard works.

After that,
Went for a late lunch with a friend.

Then went to shop with my lil sis.
Reach home by 9pm.

I really gotta work hard.
Even next week is the CNY break.

All the best, Louise!

Thanks mum for the meals!
Thanks my lecturer for the advice!
Thanks friends for the companion!
Thanks lil sis for he shop!
Hehe~

Jan 16

Lying on the bed
Thought of her.
Suddenly realized that I have not done my homework!
My blog.

Suddenly miss her so much.
How is she now?
Does she know each of us living well?
I can't deny that
She meant a lot to me.
I still feel like she is with me.
Sorry dear,
I do not mean to let you see this me,
But I just couldn't control.

I am trying my best to live

Today,
I try my best efforts on my research before college
Stay full attention in the class
Help mum to prepare for dinner
Dance all out (though my limbs are kind of in-obedient)

I had a great day!
I learned a lot!
Thanks to my lecturer,
My dancing teacher
And my family.

Sorry girl for the fight.
Just wanna let you know that
Your desire cannot be fulfilled all the time.

Jan 15

I shall really face my emotion honestly.

Still,
I have aches all over my body today,
Though better than yesterday.
I prepared for lunch,
Trying on new recipe,
Pumpkin soup.
The result turns out, just fabulous.
It's nice! :)

Ohya, before that,
I washed the bathroom.
So tiring.

After lunch and applied some ointment for muscle pain relieve,
I went for a long nap.
Woke up for my researches,
Then dinner.

Had a quarrel with mum
Then went for a long shower.
Keep on eating till now,
together with tv shows.
Gonna sleep soon,
As I could do nothing better now.

Super EMO.

Anyway, thanks mum!

Jan 14- Diary&apos;s Day

The moment I woke up,
I can just feel my body is in pain,
especially my lower back.
When the day is going to end,
I only realized that not only lower back,
I got pain on my neck, shoulder ad hamstring, as well as my abs
which brought from Monday.
Basically aches all over my body.
Kinda suffer.

After brunch
Shop with mum, bro ad sis
for the CNY.
Reach home nap
And then went to meet a friend

Talked a lot with him.
He inspired me a lot.
He made me clear on my mistake
and show me some way out of it.
Basically
He acts as my mirror

We talked about lots of issues
Traumas, emotions, personality,
religion, androgynous, habitual tendency, money, art of rejecting, imaginary, etc...

From him
I understand that emotion is something that we cannot rationalized
When it comes,
We have to accept it
And then let it go.
It is not encouraged to suppress it.
We should always acknowledge our emotions.

Maybe I shall talk more with him in the future.
I do feel relieve after the talk.

Thanks for the night! :)

Jan 13

~If this is my destiny, I will accept this happily.~

I have been writing this blog persistently for thirteen days.
Happy that I do not give up halfway.
According to some facts,
A new habit needs to be cultivate by
doing the same thing within 14 days.
I believe
I am doing well now.
What next?

A good habit being cultivated,
And another one I've been neglected.
(the morning walk)

Today,
A bigger step to be wiser.
My mind flashed out few thoughts,
Which I think are significant for me.

First,
Talents are not everything,
Hard works and resiliency would be a better answer to success.
I think of this when I have my first attempt to cut a song,
as the assignment from my dance teacher.
It's hard for me,
Especially when I forgot to save
and redo the cutting.

Second,
If this is my destiny
I will accept it happily.

The second issue is a long story,
which I am going to bring out now.

Due to some special reasons,
I have been recruited as a dancer
for a studio since beginning of the year.
I never plan to have such day in my life,
For me it's just a coincidence.

I have been keep on saying that
I will never dance,
since 2009.
but some kind of force is dragging me to dance again.
I do believe in destiny
after experience the grieve.
Though I have been trying to withdraw for plenty of times,
yet, I am still here to dance.
I think i gotta go through this path,
which I think like what other people say as the destiny.

I will now ignore all other thoughts
which deny my standing and passion in dancing.
And try my best to do my part
As long as I am still in there.

Of course,
I will never forgo my other dreams.


THANKS FOR GIVING ME A CHANCE
TO LEARN AGAIN FROM THE BOTTOM~

Thanks for letting me understand so much of myself~

So blessed to have you!

(p/s: I really wish to write down the names that I am thanking. Thought of privacy issue, I withdraw it from the text)

Jan 12

12th day of the year.
I had a great day.

After lunch, went to class.
After class, went to library, to finish my remaining thank you cards for the Starry Night committees.
Rushed to print photo, but failed, because I did not have my cable with me. :(
So, I owe two person card.

Late for the dinner,
But just nice on the time.
Had nice nyonya food
With an Assam fish, pandan chicken,
Some green leaves Vege, eggs, tofu and prawns.
So full and feel happy after the dinner.
Nice food and nice chat.

Thanks for the dinner.
I am going to miss them all.

Jan 11

I woke up quite late
Then rushed to class which begins by 11

The management was making two classes in a mess.
Half of my class was confused.
Hence our class time had been delayed.

The lecturer wants us to introduce ourselves
answer a question according to the order.
The question I got was:
In three years time, I will be...

Seriously,
I have not think of this,
No idea to answer this.
Last time I planned to get my master,
And now,
I need to re-plan.
Need it seriously.

My answer for that question was
"married"
I think that is what my subconscious
tell me.
I just answer that.
It made the whole class laughed.
Then I changed the answer.

After that,
I was doing some stuff in college
dealing with the management.

When I was home,
It's getting late.
Went out again to the bank,
fetch my sis, help mum on buying her stuff, and them refill petrol.

So tired.
Really do not feel like moving my body after dinner.
However,
I forced myself to get up and do what I need to do.

Tomorrow night will be the gathering for Starry Night committees,
as a form of celebration.
I plan to make a thank you card for each of them since last year end.
Till now, I only manage to print out the photo which I use to be part of the card.

It's not an easy job till my fingers are all in pain.
I know this is very important for me to accomplish it.
When I done with the cards,
I will be putting down all the negative emotions towards them,
Left only the positive ones.
I need to let go
and proceed with my life.
Regardless whether they will appreciate the card,
I will still doing it,
as to make myself continue with my life.

Gratitude is the greatest lesson I learned last year.
It will makes stronger.

Thanks for the class!
Thanks for the laughters!
Thanks for the lessons!

Jan 10

I was really worry on my thesis's topic
I did a very last minute research
before I went to the college for the meeting with my advisor.

I plan to link stress level, motivation,
Or depression level
on working adult
as my topic.

My advisor gave me idea to do
About stress level and resiliency
in employee.
Much more interesting.

After that,
I went to the comlab,
Did some researches on
Work and travel program to US
In this coming summer
With my partner to be.

I am so excited
when I think of this plan!
I know it is going to be a great one!

Night,
I had dinner with my group in camp.
The dinner was so nice
especially the fish.
Love it so much!
Before home,
We went for a tea session
and had a great time there.

Reach home about 1.
Temporary no more outing till so late.
I still have things yet to be done.
My intro, my 1-min song,
My reading.

Thanks to the lecturer for the brainstorming!
Thanks to my dear friend who is giving me so much of hopes in coming plan!
Thanks to the group who gave me a nice and memorable moments!

All the best for the remaining half week.
^^

Jan 9

A kickstart!

As what my status posted this morning.
Today, my classes resume,
And this is the last semester of my study,
That's why I feel kind of excited for the classes,
as well as meeting those friends.

I had my personality class.
The lecturer is from UIU
and I guess he is from Germany.
We can observe that he knows a lot,
And he told us about his experiences and qualifications.

He is funny when presenting the lecture.
Thanks for the lecture!
It's inspiring~

I know this sem is going to be very interesting.

After the class,
Went for lunch with two previous lecturers and one best friend.
We talked a lot,
Shared a lot.

When I was home, I slept approximately two hours,
Then woke up for my dancing class.
I enjoyed the class so much,
but I found out that I need lots of hard works to catch up and sharpen my skills.
(I have not start with my homework yet)
The dance teacher is super cool!
Love her so much!
Thanks for her patient~

Before home,
I went for a birthday celebration of a friend.
The restaurant are having two singers singing for the guests.
It has been a long time I do not listen to such live band singing.
I was being touched with some of the nice songs which I love,
But long time never listen to.
I really appreciate the singing.
Thanks to the two singers.
Not to forget the bunch of friends.
I had a great night!

Tomorrow,
I need to work very hard.
Finding a topic for my thesis,
I supposed to have it by today,
In order to submit it tomorrow.
God bless me
I am still clueless on what I am going to do.
Thanks miss Sam giving me some ideas in it!

Anyway, tomorrow will be a better day!
thanks to all~ <3

Jan 8

I am now 24 and 1 month old.
Haha~

What shall I write for today?
Repeating my daily routine?
For sure the reader will leave this blog very soon.

But still,
I will put a rough one to bring out my story.

I had the last meeting with the youth camp committees.
It's regarding the wrap-up of the camp, end of the camp, and voting for the new camp leader.

I did not have strong sense,
& I am not knowing each other well.
Just vote for interest.

The meeting drag me till 11pm.
It was tiring.

I saw some funny phenomena over there.
Those who are capable are sick of the high position;
Those who are not competent enough are craving for the position.
So sad for both,
but can't help with it.

This year
I will put myself once more in this job.
After my trip to US,
before my commencement day.

Lots of dreams to be achieved this year.
I strive to be the best,
doing everything based on interest.
NEVER GIVE UP
Shall be the motor of me this year.

Thanks again for giving me opportunity to say such words.

Jan 7

A very meaningful day.

So tired, but also happy in today's achievement.

Since the morning,
I began to do lots of house chores.
After breakfast,
Prepare lunch,
Then do kimchi

After lunch,
Went out with my sis and bro.
Went to bookstore
Found a nice book with 70% off.
So happy when I got it.

Before this and bed,
Doing thank you card for my friends
Who worked together with me in the youth camp.

Had a great day.
And I know tomorrow will be the same!

^^

Jan 6, A day for gratitude~

The New Chapter~

I found that I am falling in love with this title.
This is just best describing me.

Though I am not having a huge change,
though I am still having the same daily routine,
though I am still in the emotions,
though I am still low self-esteem

BUT

I can feel that
I've moved a step forward,
toward the next new chapter of my life.
I can greatly feel this now.

Same,
I woke up for my morning walk
with mum and bro.
After breakfast, prepare for the lunch
wash the porch
SLEEP, I mean a nap ( I need this everyday)
then some small handicrafts
wiping job for mum
Dinner
went for dancing class.

The dancing class is the part which inspired me a lot.
I learn none of the dancing skills
but the class mainly focus on our innate needs.
We had just done some positioning
and then talked about our own story.

For me,
it's never easy to reveal myself
in front of so many people.
I did it,
although it's quite rough.

I am still wondering why I was there.
Do I belong to them?
I am worry on getting hurt,
and at the same time
I want myself to learn a word
"TO TRUST"

I believe
there is a fate to let me meet them.

and I shall always be grateful on people I am meeting.

Thanks for giving me an opportunity
to know you all,
who are so good in dancing
and having lots of great experiences.

I shall proceed with the journey
with a peaceful mind and soul.

Bliss~

Jan 5

I can hardly wake up for the walk today
but after 30 minutes
I forced myself to wake up.
I must cultivate to wake up for morning walk everyday.
At last, I did it,
though it was not a long one,
but I did it.

After breakfast, I prepared lunch with my bros
Then, doing some handicrafts.

I got some news which make me feel good
First
Yesterday, I sent an email to the agent of Work and Travel Program
They got back to me today.
The job list they are providing,
there is an option which I really want to go
- The Yellowstone National Park.
The other option I wish to go is Alaska.
Both places have breathtaking scenery
and just match what I want.
This has just making me feel good all day long.

Second
something related to this.
Last month,
I went for an audition to become a dancer
I made it, and I know I need to have commitment in it.
I was worry previously because I plan to go US
mid of the year.
I scared if I commit
half way I have to leave.
Bad image huh!?
I told them my plan,
and they told that's fine！
:)

Last
still waiting for my friend to help me format my PC
~
tomorrow I am going to have a great day~

Thanks to all~ :)

A day to think~ Jan 4

I am using the whole day to think.
Some issues are haunting me.
I hardly get what my heart was trying to tell me
It was very noisy...

I found out that I am very negative now.
Finding solutions to get rid of it.
Trying to believe I can do it.

Spent the whole afternoon with mum
feel better after all.

I really need time to settle down before I proceed to the next stage.
Believe that I will do it!

Thanks mum for all
Thanks for the day~

I want $$

Not that I am materialistic or what,
But I know I really need it now.

For everything I need
especially those thing that I am going to achieve
which need money as an investment

The secret
Law of Attraction
tells me that
WHEN I WANT SOMETHING
I CAN JUST GET IT
*of course
I need some ways to get*

I know I will have the amount that can fulfill my wish
I know the money is coming to me right now.

Do you believe it or not?

Anyway,
this is just a way to help me get what I want.

I will have it.

January 3

Mum has fall sick,
aches all over her body,
but, she was still went for her daily morning walk.
I salute her!

I did nothing much today,
but I think a lot.

Keep on thinking the new life again
when the college resume.
Shall I proceed with my dancing?
I plan to go US once more,
what if I could not make it?
If I go US,
can I resolve my internal conflict
that was being made by last trip of US?
How shall I decide?

Ignore that part.
What about my final year project on Psychology?
my sample?
kids?
adolescence?
working adult?
college students?
Again...
topics?
(clueless)
Time is getting tighter...
I am still wondering around.

Ok.
Now list down what I need to do.
1. Backup all my data in this PC and send to format.
2. Print all necessary items
3. Still, cleaning and cleaning
4.

Hahaha~
How come I can only get 3?
Alright.
Just finish these 3 before get more.

Night~

Second day of the year~

Just wondering,
I love the number "2"very much,
but I just cannot understand that
I've forgotten today is Jan 2!

After my breakfast and searching for the newspaper
I was looking for Jan 3 newspaper!
When my bro reminded me that today is only 2nd,
I stunt.

Why would I having this?

I did spring cleaning with my family today,
cleared out lots of stuffs,
with my mask on
(Just because my nose is hyper allergic to the dust, and maybe the dust mites)
I just could not proceed with my mask off.

Word for the day: Tired.
I still proceed with my cleaning job at night,
but not for my surrounding,
it's my pc!
I need to format my pc and I am checking what's important
and which to keep
before send to format.

Anyhow,
I do enjoy the day
SUPER meaningful.

Night~

Happy New Year <3

2012
A great start
With hopes and wishes,
After the challenging 2011.

2011
I've been facing so much that year.
It was never an easy year for me.
I am growing a lot
And become tougher after the year.

I shall now do some resolution for this year, as a good start for it.

I wanna change,
be a person who is different from 2011's Louise.
To be more calm, friendly, and rational.
To be more positive and broad-hearted.

Second,
I want to be healthy.
Regular exercises and
no more alcohol.
Have more vitamin c as well.

Next,
I want to get good result for my last sem study.
I need to be emotional stable and do according to the proper progression.
I want to keep everything on time,
and manage my time properly for everything in my daily life.

I would like to do some voluntary works when I could.

I want to go to US to explore once more before I find a job and settle down.

I wish I can found the right guy this year.

I want to be happy throughout the year.

I can!
I can get whatever as I wish!

Thanks for granting me wisdom throughout the hardship.
Thanks for giving me those honey during the bad time.
Thanks as I am still alive!

Happy new year~