First time

This is the first time
I feel tired
until sick.

Oh gosh!
The fatigue on body n mind
is making me sick.
Hope my soul can have enough spiritual strength to resist this,
aches all over my body.

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Today
I found out that I really dunno what I am doing.
I am like a crazy person
who like to be alone
like to let people know I am good
the one who gives the whole heart
for those who deserve
who take for granted on those who care for me.

What I shall do?

Fear is conquering me.
My EQ drops till 0 age.

I am just bringing troubles to people round me
TT

I really dunno what I am doing now...

What is this???
This is what I want?
I am lost ><

Cool down
It's normal. Come on.
Cool down
You will make it.
Trust me.
You can make it.
Can you see?
You are making it!
Am I right? ^^

Yeah
Take in a deep breath.
Exhale it slowly back to the air
Inhale......
And
Exhale...........

Feeling better now right?
:)

I am doing fine.

This has become a quote of mine,
everytime I feel I really gone through some hardships.
It's normal.
Keep on telling myself
That it is normal and everyone would go through.
I think this is the best I can do for myself.

I met her, talk to her this morning.
I was telling her I am fine,
And she knows it.
True.
Life's going on.
I gotta let go something that
truly belongs to my memory
And welcome some other things that belongs to my future.

I shall grab my present tight.
Stop looking back, mourning for the past, and begin my footstep.
To catch up those left me far apart behind.

Thanks to u, obstacles!
U r just making me stronger.
:)

Wisdom?

I came across a quote
which I think it is meaningful

"wisdom comes from previous experience and reflection"

Reflection
is the way to make us wiser.
I could not deny this statement.

Every time I did something wrong,
I need a time to ponder
and to reflect
To prepare my self to coming journey.

After years and times,
underwent all kind of difficulties,
challenges and obstacles,
My mind appears a question.
Do I really gain my wisdom after all?

I am. I shall answer like this.
& I am doing better from time to time.

Do I really need to care everyone's emotion and view?
Last time, I did.
But now, I won't.
I am wise enough to analyze what and who does for me.

Thanks for giving me opportunities to learn,
and giving me chances to be a better me.

I lost my temper!

I just forgot how to control my temper,
I could control my emotions and stay calm when something happened today.

I am sorry.
I think I am a bit ego in this case.

I do not want to give any excuse
To protect myself
But I really under a great stress which I really lost control on my self.

I am sorry
That's all I can say.

October birthday celebrations

Porto Romano at Mont Kiara#
Nice and romantic Italian restaurant!
The most unforgettable part is that
They serve the dessert in a unique way which coordinate with our celebration.
I like this so much.

My weekend!

I planned my weekend
But I think I failed in planning.

I gotta do my revision on coming Monday's midterm
I gotta celebrate with my dears for the month's valentine
I gotta go for a launching ceremony for an event I commit in
I gotta have a detailed meeting with my group
I gotta celebrate the October birthdays with my gang
& last but not least
To rest.

I almost get everything in my plan accomplish,
But I only get one of it done about 10%
which I think is the most important one,
My exam preparation!

I m worry as my weekend is ending now.
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Anyway,
Thanks for all
Who gave me the wonderful weekend.

Merci~

The Third hundred days

I never wonder I am still survive
In this 300 days
It's never easy
But it's still acceptable.

I am having lots of commitment right now
Till I could hardly go into the state
Which I can feel the pain.
I was once thinking that this would be the best for me,
At this stage.
However, I realize that
I am walking into a slow suicidal.
So terrified!

I miss her,
But not pain as before.
Tears still accompany throughout
my private and personal time.
I am now appreciate all the feeling
which makes me feel uncomfortable,
I understand that I have only this period of time to get into such emotions.

I am working hard &
I am doing well.
This is my all time favorite quote
to drive me to a further journey.

I appreciate true friends and good mentors by my side
who support me,
And encourage me
To continue with my journey.

Gracias
Is all I can say.
Thanks for walking with me
and touching my heart.

Thank u!

Joy

Time flies~
I never think that I have go through so much in my life.

24.
I almost go through 24 years in my life.
Joy, sorrow, anger, disappointment, lost...
Every emotions are so vivid
and clear in my mind.

Today
I just couldn't resist the joy.
I found back my previous friend,
whom I lost contact for a full 7 years.

It's so cool I can talk to him through facebook
Wish I can catch back what we lost in this seven years.

First time feel blessed to have facebook.

LOL