March 25

Today
is a beautiful day for me
just laying back
relaxing
and do everything that I like,
just like yesterday.

Yesterday was far more relax than today
cooked for my family
sleep, eat and watch tv
then shopped with my sis

today I can feel slight pressure for tomorrow
Pray for what I want
I want him to leave
No more bearing with him
You can say I am immature
but
I have had enough mentally torture from him
which is making me stop from progressing

the IMPACT from the accident
I can clearly feel it now
though long sleeping and resting for the whole weekend,
it still couldn't get me out from the pain
The spots that I applied patches
which can heal my injuries on the tendon
becoming itchy due to allergic

I do not like such sensitive skin.

Mum,
I can feel that you would miss and worry me when I go US later
BUT
I can tell you that
after facing so much of things these few years
I feel that leaving home for a long period of time
will never be the first choice of mine!
I can even feel reluctant to go out of the door
to meet my friend outside
I've made this tough decision to go once more
because I need to face and resolve
some internal issues within myself
This will be the last time I do such thing in my life

Thanks mum for the understanding!
thanks friends who never forget me though I always doing something wrong.
Thanks god that I am still alive after the accident!
Thanks to you who willing to spend time
            to understand me even we do not have time to meet. :)