April 17

Aaarrr..................
I just want to scream,
like yesterday
I screamed in my car window moved down
driving within 80-90 km/hr
on the way home.

YES
I AM UNDER STRESS DEEPLY
and
not like others said
that I looked extremely calm
without any anxiety
before my final year project presentation

The difference of mine and others just that
I recognized my stress and emotions cognitively
rather than express them emotionally
I do admit that
I've somehow lost the ability to express my emotions
either
happy, sad, angry, frustrated, or even anxious
I understand that this is not good for me
but I just do not know why is it happened

I wish I can express my emotions

Regarding my presentation
maybe I really did it badly
but I do not think that
I really that bad.
He can't penalized me on some minor
grammar errors on few slides
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Now,
I need to do well in my report
and prove him
he was wrong
I deserve to have a good grade.

Anyway,
thanks to all friends
and my lecturers
who supported me today.
Thanks to mum and dad.
:)