April 2

I was kind of worried and anxious
When this day approaching
Two reasons
First,
my personality class would be replaced by one lecturer that I know for a couple of time
This class caused me anxiety
might be caused by the reason that
I am really drained out by the lecturer
of his attitude in class
and his irresponsible left us without acknowledging us.

Second,
Today is the due date for my second draft
Seriously said
I am not completed it when I sent it
and it was about two hours late upon the time of submission
I blamed no one but myself
I could have done better
Just hope I can have slight amendments after getting it back

I never feel that stressed
and draining before
I worked till I felt heavy headache
nausea, and almost faint off

It was so not me!
I was once had a high retention towards stress and challenges
After the death
I just be the self like now
Low to zero motivation
Easily feel stressed
Low energy level
Easily give up
High neurotics
(upsets, angry, anxious, ...)

I want to be the happy me again
And I know I can!
^^

Just got a news from a friend
That he needs to sacrifice his plan
in met with something happened within his family.
As compared to his case,
I feel blessed
to have my lovely family
and supportive mom

People can perceive me
as I am a person who likes to follow own will and interest
But I know well
the reason behind
And mom taught me on this
"Be brave to ignore how others see you,
Just do something that you think it is right."
These words have given me enough courage to face the world
to stand up and fight back the challenges

Thanks mom for raising up!
Thanks friend who made me realized this.
Thanks to the lecturer who full of wisdom.
Thanks to my self, you have done your best! <3