Just some pieces from my junk mind~

First of all,
This will be certainly like what is being mentioned in the title.
No special arrangement,
no editing,
no any decoration on the words,
JUST purely dig out from the rusting mind.

What is the aim of your life?
What do you want in your life?
What is your motive to live?
These few questions are haunting me recently.

Frankly say,
I am lost.
If this situation accidentally seen
by myself one year ago,
That self would definitely laugh me
until I would dig myself a hole to hide inside.

I was always the EGO person,
and knowing what I want in my life well.
I never wonder I would be defeat
by this.
NEVER.

I am lost.
Figuring ways to go out from the dark cloud.
Can I?

She is influencing me in some ways,
her philosophy.
She would never want to give up,
even though the success rate only up to 0.1%,
she will still persist.
She did not mind to be the clown of the crowd.
For her,
she would be happy if she can bring the cheers to people around her.
She is a SUN for us.

I miss her.
I hope I can pass her message around
to everyone.
To live happily.
To enjoy every single thing that is being owned.

Still thinking,
What I really want.