I had few days with some serious thoughts.

I gotta get out from what I am now.

I need it deeply.

After few days sitting down

doing nothing,

I can only now realized that

I am too EGO to accept failure.

I am.

This EGO is bringing me more obstacles

to find back myself.

I hate it, but gotta accept it and not eliminate it,

because this is the only asset I have

to protect the little fragile heart of mine.

Fu Yee,

You cannot live without your aim of life.

That's not you!

(this is what the voice of my heart talk to me just a little moment ago)

Yes.

I admit that

I have no aim at all.

I dare not to think of anything now,

dare not to dream,

dare not to ask for anything either.

Some more,

I am giving myself a very lame excuse,

I dare not to simply ask for something

because what I think will be true,

I need to think seriously of what I really want.

But, that's what I got along the journey,

believe it or not

depends on you.

Today,

I found out that

how pity I am

without my dream.

I am not me anymore.

I was knowing myself well last time,

but not now.

I lost the real identity of me.

I know I gotta ponder on what I want in the future now.

For now,

I need to be serious,

serious in everything in my life.

Serious in enjoying my life.

To find back the innate self of mine.